“I will always love you.”
Those were the words that came out of my mouth the night you held
me in your arms. Somehow, I still feel them around me and your face buried on
my chest as I held on to you so tightly that night. I knew that we weren’t
going to have the chance, that I will never have the chance to have you that
close so I gathered up all my drunken strength and sober thoughts and poured
out my heart for you.
You will always occupy a big space in my heart and you
knew that. And you never used that for anything, you just accepted it. I love
you in the most painful way and sometimes I get tired of it. Sometimes I’d tell
myself that whatever this is will end. That how I feel for you will soon be
gone and everything will be okay again. But for almost a year now, I still
can’t bring myself to love someone else as much as I love you.
And it may seem
final but as I've said, I will always love you.
I will love you even when you love someone else. I’ve seen you
love her. I saw how you looked at her hopelessly but full of love every single
day. It pained me to see you sad. To see you hurt, to see you getting less of
what you deserved. I stayed away from your sight. I tried to look away. But I
couldn’t. I couldn’t look away because I wanted to wipe every tear fallen on
your cheek. I wanted to brush your hair away from your face and hold you in my
arms and kiss your forehead and tell you how beautiful you are. I did that
night you held me in your arms. And I don’t regret any second of it.
I will love you even when you can’t love me back.
You just can’t
and that’s okay.
I will still love you anyway.
I will love you even when we
can’t be together.
I will love you even when friendship is the only thing you
can offer.
I will love you even though it hurts me more than it should.
I will
love you even when I’m in love with someone else.
I will love you even when you
can’t stay
I will still love you anyway.
